With A Heavy Heart

[Traci08]

And as tears fill my eyes. I've taken the last straw. I cannot deal with my husbands PTSD, the lack of respect and him throwing a ****ing fit when I am vocal about when things hurt me. I am allowed my feelings and shouldn't be made to feel bad for having them. Within the past two years of dealing with all of this, I've always been patient and understanding about all of this. I can't even talk about what happened tonight, its hurts way too d a m n much! But, its a decision I have finally had to make. But, I deserve to be respected and loved. And throughout all of this, he's not even made any effort on his part to make this marriage work.

I cannot make him be a husband and father. But, I refuse to be treated like a ****ing doormat.

[LuvMySailor4ever]

I'm so sorry that this is happening! You can only do so much. You should NEVER be treated like a doormat especially from the man you married.

[Jumpin Jollyfish]

I'm so sorry hun

[Traci08]

Thanks guys. I've done all that I can. Now its time to make myself happy in life. Worry about me and my son now. And stop wasting my time with someone who is just a complete *******.

[BMichelleB]

[Kaylin]

I'm sorry it's come to this!

[louisa85]

You've tried hard. There's only so much a person can take.

[hisgirl7477]

Traci you know my pm box and emails are open.

There is NO SHAME in putting yourself and your son first. NONE!

And maybe you don't want to hear this right now... but I know SO MANY women who have gotten to this point, have given their husbands/so's what they ask for, have walked away and let them figure out their own issues - and low and behold a few months later their husbands/so's are back. Sometimes you have to let them hit rock bottom alone before they snap out of it. In a way its the ultimate act of love - because you and I both know that when you love someone as much as you love your DH its the hardest thing in the world to let them self destruct alone... But sometimes, you have no other choice. The crashing airplane and oxygen mask image always comes to mind when I think of it... help yourself first, then others.

I'm so sorry! PM me if you need to vent and scream and yell and cry and whatever.

Love you girl!

[Traci08]

Thanks. I am actually okay with this decision. If he can be disrespectful to me, then he doesn't deserve me. But, he has now gotten rid of his facebook. And has taken me off twitter. He's the biggest baby of anyone I know. Its over. I am done with it all.

[jessi01]

I'm sorry, but I think it's a good decision for you and your son. You dealt with it and were patient much longer than I was and it was unbearable. I always wondered how you were so strong and could be so patient. Maybe it's time to make Traci happy, for yourself, and start rebuilding you and your son's lives without him.