Sick of it. - PTSD

kiwijus · 06-05-2009, 12:22 PM

I'm sick of it.

I'm sick of PTSD.
I'm sick of *****ing.
I'm sick of being tired.
I'm sick of being angry, sad, hurt, panicked, and hyperemotional.

I'm tired of being a "textbook case" of any ****ing disease.

Mostly though, I'm just sick of myself.

When I go to the doctor on Monday, I hope he gives me medicine that numbs the pain. I don't care what, just something to end the hurt. I'd take being a zombie over this hypervigilante bull****.

ArmyCupcake · 06-05-2009, 12:23 PM

jessi01 · 06-05-2009, 12:33 PM

I'm sorry . . . I hope things start looking up for you soon. I hate PTSD too, but from being on the other side of it.

Sunny87740 · 06-05-2009, 04:16 PM

Many hugs to you. I don't want to intrude, but is there anything I can do to help?

Kisha · 06-05-2009, 04:17 PM

kensington · 06-06-2009, 01:02 AM

Originally Posted by kiwijus

I'm sick of it.

I'm sick of PTSD.
I'm sick of *****ing.
I'm sick of being tired.
I'm sick of being angry, sad, hurt, panicked, and hyperemotional.

I'm tired of being a "textbook case" of any ****ing disease.

Mostly though, I'm just sick of myself.

When I go to the doctor on Monday, I hope he gives me medicine that numbs the pain. I don't care what, just something to end the hurt. I'd take being a zombie over this hypervigilante bull****.

I believe in prayer... I am praying for you.

USCsemperfi · 06-06-2009, 01:09 AM

I felt the same way about the medication.
Luckily it made me feel better, with counseling...not numb.
It sounds like what you want at the time, but you just have to take it one day at a time.

You can survive this. You can, you can.
Please PM me if you need anything. Again.
I'm fighting WITH you. I'm praying for you.

May God bless you and keep you.

StarryEyes · 06-07-2009, 01:51 PM

Kiwi, i pray every night for my ex that he finds some peace throughout all of this. I'll say a prayer for you too. *hugssssss*

kiwijus · 06-07-2009, 03:40 PM

Thank you, I appreciate the prayers from everybody.

Tomorrow's my appointment.

06-05-2009, 12:22 PM	#1 (permalink)
kiwijus Li'l Squat Bird Join Date: Apr 2007 Posts: 11,819 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 65% Longevity: 44%	Sick of it. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of PTSD. I'm sick of ***ing. I'm sick of being tired. I'm sick of being angry, sad, hurt, panicked, and hyperemotional. I'm tired of being a "textbook case" of any ing disease. Mostly though, I'm just sick of myself. When I go to the doctor on Monday, I hope he gives me medicine that numbs the pain. I don't care what, just something to end the hurt. I'd take being a zombie over this hypervigilante bull**. __________________

06-05-2009, 12:23 PM	#2 (permalink)
ArmyCupcake Senior Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: New Jersey Posts: 2,747 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 54% Longevity: 26%	__________________

06-05-2009, 12:33 PM	#3 (permalink)
jessi01 In my own little crazy world . . it's ok, they know me here. Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 3,325 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 25% Longevity: 16%	I'm sorry . . . I hope things start looking up for you soon. I hate PTSD too, but from being on the other side of it. __________________ The greatness of a nation and it's moral progress can be judged by the way it's animals are treated ~ Gandhi www.frenchbulldogrescue.org

06-05-2009, 04:16 PM	#4 (permalink)
Sunny87740 Proud Veteran's Wife Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Northeast Posts: 2,009 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 35% Longevity: 16%	Many hugs to you. I don't want to intrude, but is there anything I can do to help? __________________

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06-06-2009, 01:09 AM	#7 (permalink)
USCsemperfi All you need is love, love is all you need. Join Date: May 2009 Location: Columbia, SC Posts: 1,365 Blog Entries: 1 Classifieds: (1) Activity: 62% Longevity: 8%	I felt the same way about the medication. Luckily it made me feel better, with counseling...not numb. It sounds like what you want at the time, but you just have to take it one day at a time. You can survive this. You can, you can. Please PM me if you need anything. Again. I'm fighting WITH you. I'm praying for you. May God bless you and keep you. __________________ My Wives: Drea&Pat.USMC and fallinstar (aka perfection) TayreehBaykur's Ginger!

06-07-2009, 01:51 PM	#8 (permalink)
StarryEyes Float like a butterfly, sting like a bee! Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 265 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 0% Longevity: 36%	Kiwi, i pray every night for my ex that he finds some peace throughout all of this. I'll say a prayer for you too. hugssssss __________________

06-07-2009, 03:40 PM	#9 (permalink)
kiwijus Li'l Squat Bird Join Date: Apr 2007 Posts: 11,819 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 65% Longevity: 44%	Thank you, I appreciate the prayers from everybody. Tomorrow's my appointment. __________________