feel as though im fighting mi own emotions...

[lovnmimarine]

Ive been talking to mi marine for almost six months now n were great but the time apart kills me n im fighting my own emotions cause i love him n miss him so much but i also gotta be put a smile on for mi kids n family n push through the days but i know i love him n im here for him no matta wat. Hes said he cares about me but i dont wanna talk too much about missing him n how he feels about me. He says he gets to me when he can which is every weekend n when we do talk im happier than ive ever been but when throughout the week when we cant talk i find myself thinking of missing him n at night when i dont get to hear from him i get all emotional; cryn cause it sucks not being able to knwo when i can see him. I love mi marine i just want some security but he hates talking about stuff like this he tells me just live each day live in the momment. Somehow i still cant do that n its been months since he said that....any advice is needed; sorry for the rambling...

[luckylucy]

I understand, I want to badly to not have to cry everytime Nathan brings up leaving or deployments, I ball when the song, "if you're reading this" comes up. It's bad. Just let it out sometimes you need to, to be stronger.

[lovnmimarine]

Thanks i understand just feels as though noone understands mi situation; its hard to explain wat i feel when the man i love i havnt seen but m talking to for six months now. Were not even dating n althought hes said he cares he just wants to see me first n see wat happens i cant help but have some days that when i hear from him i get a perminant smile n then i have days when i just want to be next to him n know i cant n god knows when ill actually see him. I have two kids n somehow hes on mi mind all the time n no hes not number one mi kids always come first he understands that.....i just feel as though i sit n stare at the sky n ball my eyes out...i understand hes a marine n hes got responsibilites to train n get his fellow marines n himself trained well enough for the task at hand i feel almost like im being selfish but cant help it....he reasures me that he cares n he only wants me n i trust him just very impatient lately. Its nice letting all this out....email me anytime

[miamoa2002]

So is he deployed? I am not sure I understand: you have been talking for 6 months and haven´t met yet and he says he wants to take the day as it comes and not make any plans? Do you have any plans for meeting? I am a bit confused as to when you see he comes to you on weekends?

[candypants]

I am confused as well. I'm not trying to play grammar police, but your post is a little hard to read. I'd love to give you advice, but I'm not really sure what you're asking.

Bottom line is this: military relationships (especially LDR's) are hard. They suck. The fact is, you just have to be strong, if you want it to work. There's absolutely nothing wrong with missing him, but if you keep dwelling on the fact, it's going to make things so much worse. It sounds like you have really fallen for this guy, and that's great, but I recommend waiting to get serious until you two have actually met. And I hate to say this and risk sounding harsh, but if he deploys it's only going to get worse and communication may be far and in between.

[lovnmimarine]

Sorry i wasnt as clear as i wanted to be; the man im talking to for six months is going overseas on a ship his orders havnt come in yet but either this weekend or next he will get his orders. We have not met yet n we do talk about seeing each other although hes not sure when we can since his mission could last three to six months he said soon as this mission is over he can come see me....does that help any?

[*MarineBug*]

What is his job? MOS? Will he be on a ship? I have not heard of Marines going on missions like this, just deployments.

[BubblesofBeer]

How old are you and him?

[Amber]

Originally Posted by *MarineBug* What is his job? MOS? Will he be on a ship? I have not heard of Marines going on missions like this, just deployments.

What she said.

Not to be grammar police but text speak is very hard to read when you put things like "mi" instead of "my" and "n" instead of "and" and "wat" instead of "what". In general, posts are responded to more frequently when they are easy to understand.

[lovnmimarine]

My marine works on vehicles; he told me recently hes waiting on his orders to be given to him he will be going aboard a ship he was told; hes 25 im 20... we havnt met but are keeping in contact for six months now...