Awful day and I don't want to be alone.. its a novel.

[jen-marie]

I am having an awful day and I really don't want to go to bed and be completely alone.. So I am up surfing the net and wasting time regardless of the fact that I don't have enough time to get everything on my plate done.

I go my financial aid statement today and I have no clue how I am going to finance my last year of school.. Its looking like I am going to have to move back in with my parents, drive 40 minutes to get to school everyday and spend every cent that I've saved for our wedding, just so I can make everything work.

I lost my job today with the news of my financial aid stuff and I am so upset about it. My position was funded through work study as a part of me paying for school.

Not to mention that its finals week and I more homework and studying than I can possibly do.

I have a event coming up that I have been planning for more than three months now, its an academic conference, researchers are coming in from all over the world blah blah blah and I have been on the team planning and managing all of it and its next weekend, right in the middle of my finals.

The store that I work at has its big sale all of june so on top of everything i am working a ton of extra shifts

I just got an internship that is an awesome opportunity and today realized that I need to quit because I need to find a new job..

Oh, and no money to go see Josh anytime soon. It was already looking like we were going to have a long stretch but its really really going to be long. Like I wont see him till he moves to his next duty station (Hopefully stateside- we'll find out in a few months) Mid-March.. so that will make it a full year that we won't see each other.

I have no words for how upset I am right now. I really need to go to bed, but I know I will just end up crying more and getting myself more worked up.

I could really really use him here right now.

Gah....... thanks for listening.

[clsmarathon]

That's a lot to be dealing with, esp. all of it happening at once.

Hang in there.

[lavender_jane]

Woah, that's some stress

I'm sorry things are messy for you right now. Keep working hard and you'll get through it You sound like a really together person... I'm sure that'll help you

[jen-marie]

It would just be nice to have him here to make it better.

I'll still have my retail job, but I've lost my current position for next year and it really has me stressed out because it paid the bills. My retail job is just extra to keep me busy.

Josh has offered to come up with the 7,000 that I need for school but I have no idea how he could come up with that sort of money.

I have 3,000 saved up for our wedding that I really could spend for school, but there goes my wedding..

Its just really discouraging for me to work so hard all the time at work, school, my LDR to only have it all just.. suck.

[terifinn]

Originally Posted by jen-marie I am having an awful day and I really don't want to go to bed and be completely alone.. So I am up surfing the next and wasting time regardless of the fact that I don't have enough time to get everything on my plate done. I go my financial aid statement today and I have no clue how I am going to finance my last year of school.. Its looking like I am going to have to move back in with my parents, drive 40 minutes to get to school everyday and spend every cent that I've saved for our wedding, just so I can make everything work. I lost my job today with the news of my financial aid stuff and I am so upset about it. My position was funded through work study as a part of me paying for school. Not to mention that its finals week and I more homework and studying than I can possibly do. I have a event coming up that I have been planning for more than three months now, its an academic conference, researchers are coming in from all over the world blah blah blah and I have been on the team planning and managing all of it and its next weekend, right in the middle of my finals. The store that I work at has its big sale all of june so on top of everything i am working a ton of extra shifts I just got an internship that is an awesome opportunity and today realized that I need to quit because I need to find a new job.. Oh, and no money to go see Josh anytime soon. It was already looking like we were going to have a long stretch but its really really going to be long. Like I wont see him till he moves to his next duty station (Hopefully stateside- we'll find out in a few months) Mid-March.. so that will make it a full year that we won't see each other. I have no words for how upset I am right now. I really need to go to bed, but I know I will just end up crying more and getting myself more worked up. I could really really use him here right now. Gah....... thanks for listening.

I promise you'll get through it! And it will work out!

[SarahElizabeth]

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how frustrating and disheartening that all is. Take some time to think through your options, talk to your DF about it. I truly hope you get it all worked out.

[belovedreamery]

Oh sweetie, I think it's amazing that you had two jobs! Don't worry, you can always have your big dream wedding years later, you just need to concentrate on school right now. I'm sorry it's all sucking right now, is there a reason why financial aid denied you or changed on you?

[jen-marie]

Originally Posted by belovedreamery Oh sweetie, I think it's amazing that you had two jobs! Don't worry, you can always have your big dream wedding years later, you just need to concentrate on school right now. I'm sorry it's all sucking right now, is there a reason why financial aid denied you or changed on you?

Yea I just spoke with them... my parents had to use part of their retirement account to pay for medical expenses and there are penalties involved with accessing those funds before a certain age and by them accessing the funds I became ineligible.

They did tell me that I can write a letter regarding the medical expenses and possibly get it excluded which will help me out.

I just can't deal with all of this alone.

I am so sick of this three years in Germany thing.

[Cav Girl]

Originally Posted by jen-marie I am having an awful day and I really don't want to go to bed and be completely alone.. So I am up surfing the next and wasting time regardless of the fact that I don't have enough time to get everything on my plate done. I go my financial aid statement today and I have no clue how I am going to finance my last year of school.. Its looking like I am going to have to move back in with my parents, drive 40 minutes to get to school everyday and spend every cent that I've saved for our wedding, just so I can make everything work. I lost my job today with the news of my financial aid stuff and I am so upset about it. My position was funded through work study as a part of me paying for school. Not to mention that its finals week and I more homework and studying than I can possibly do. I have a event coming up that I have been planning for more than three months now, its an academic conference, researchers are coming in from all over the world blah blah blah and I have been on the team planning and managing all of it and its next weekend, right in the middle of my finals. The store that I work at has its big sale all of june so on top of everything i am working a ton of extra shifts I just got an internship that is an awesome opportunity and today realized that I need to quit because I need to find a new job.. Oh, and no money to go see Josh anytime soon. It was already looking like we were going to have a long stretch but its really really going to be long. Like I wont see him till he moves to his next duty station (Hopefully stateside- we'll find out in a few months) Mid-March.. so that will make it a full year that we won't see each other. I have no words for how upset I am right now. I really need to go to bed, but I know I will just end up crying more and getting myself more worked up. I could really really use him here right now. Gah....... thanks for listening.

you do have a lot on your plate. just take everything one step at a time, deep breaths help a lot too. you can do this!

[Melanie.]

I understand with long term LDRs and having to pay for school and work your ass off. I'm in the same/simliar situation pretty much. If you need anything I'm here just PM me. Vent/talk/whatever you need. Anything.