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    I was looking back at all my old posts from when I dated Mike. I was stupid and foolish and I do NOT like how I let myself get treated. Now, everytime I go home on leave I run into Mike. It's a problem. If you don't know of Mike, we dated for almost 2 years, 1 of which he was deployed. Things would go from amazing to terrible, he was physically and verbally abusive. Got pregnant, lost the baby, got degraded for that. But anyway, I was just reading it and realized.. wow, this is NOT who I am and that is NOT how I deserve to be treated. It was like an eye opener. I think because being in the Army made me realize just how strong I am and made me really fully love myself. I don't think I loved myself when I was with him. I looked for HIS love to validate me and when I didn't have it, I felt worthless.

    Well, I just wanted to say, I am worth it. I am worth the love and support of an amazing man. And so is EVERY lady on this board. Now, this final break-up was about a year ago. And up until maybe 2 months ago I thought I'd always feel broken from it. I have never felt stronger, better or more beautiful. So ladies, if I can get through it, ANYONE CAN.

    I just wanted to apologize for being a love struck fool. This post is all over the place and I'm sorry. I just needed to say something. I've been over this break-up for awhile now. It still had effects on me but I wasn't still in love and wanting him back for a long time. But it just made me feel better I guess to read those posts and see I got strong enough and smart enough to walk away for good last year.

    To all of you dealing with a break up, It DEFINATELY does get better!
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    I just wanted to offer some and glad you are feeling better about the break up! Glad things are looking up for you!
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    I'm glad things are starting to look up for you
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    Quote Originally Posted by Trishy0815 View Post
    I was looking back at all my old posts from when I dated Mike. I was stupid and foolish and I do NOT like how I let myself get treated. Now, everytime I go home on leave I run into Mike. It's a problem. If you don't know of Mike, we dated for almost 2 years, 1 of which he was deployed. Things would go from amazing to terrible, he was physically and verbally abusive. Got pregnant, lost the baby, got degraded for that. But anyway, I was just reading it and realized.. wow, this is NOT who I am and that is NOT how I deserve to be treated. It was like an eye opener. I think because being in the Army made me realize just how strong I am and made me really fully love myself. I don't think I loved myself when I was with him. I looked for HIS love to validate me and when I didn't have it, I felt worthless.

    Well, I just wanted to say, I am worth it. I am worth the love and support of an amazing man. And so is EVERY lady on this board. Now, this final break-up was about a year ago. And up until maybe 2 months ago I thought I'd always feel broken from it. I have never felt stronger, better or more beautiful. So ladies, if I can get through it, ANYONE CAN.

    I just wanted to apologize for being a love struck fool. This post is all over the place and I'm sorry. I just needed to say something. I've been over this break-up for awhile now. It still had effects on me but I wasn't still in love and wanting him back for a long time. But it just made me feel better I guess to read those posts and see I got strong enough and smart enough to walk away for good last year.

    To all of you dealing with a break up, It DEFINATELY does get better!

    It takes so long for so many people to realize this! It's why we get stuck in negative relationships.
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    outstanding post - im so ******* happy that you know you are a worthwhile person that deserves respect and love

    .... don't make me say good-bye and don't make me stay

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    Thanks ladies!



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    I agree, OUTSTANDING POST!!! I can relate to some parts of that... we are worth it and do NOT deserve that kind of treatment! I wish I would have realized the crap I put up with and put my foot down and said GOODBYE then instead of saying the good outweighs the bad so I will just deal with the crap... but we deserve soo much better! I hope all girls realize this.

    You go girl!
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    im on my way to being in this same place. good for you!
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    I remember your posts, and Trish, you have no idea how much of an inspiration you were to me. I was going through a very rough marriage about that time, and somehow I found courage in you. I know we never talked, but when I wrote a DEARSOS thread, you responded so kindly.

    Like you, I was looking for my ex's love to validate me. When he wasn't happy, I wasn't happy. Not only happy, but miserable, upset. So I can relate to you a lot. I just want you to know how proud I am of you, for finally ending things, for finding your way back to yourself. You are right, you deserve the best, and you will get it!

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