sorry for this being so long..
Well 2wks ago Jose was real busy all week so we had very little time to talk.. and He promised me that he would talk to me all day Saturday. So i got my hopes and was super excited, and when saturday finally came.. He was drinking with his friends and hella blew me off. I mentioned it to him and He said sorry and he would talk to me more like he promised... but he said through text. So i texted him and 4 hours later, he replies with thats cool. i mentioned it again.. And the same thing happened. I told him that i was getting upset because he told me something and went back on it. And he got mad and told me that I'm killing his mood... and we got into a little argument and he hung up on me and turned off his phone. And called me back about 3hours later and told me that hes going to bed. And on sunday morning he called me and said that he isnt sure if he wants to be with me anymore, because i'm becoming a real *****... that I'm not the girl who he met and I'm not even the girl who went to go visit him during his graduation weekend.
Well since then he has been talking me to me very little. He doesnt call or text me in the morning to tell me good morning. He calls me during his lunch but our half an hour turned into.. I only have a few mins to talk. And he used to call me when he got out of school around 3pm and now around 5pm I'll get a text message saying that he has alot of things to do and he'll call me later.. then he calls me 3hours later to tell me that he is going to bed.
I mentioned this to him to... I asked him what was up and he said nothing. And then he started talking about how he cant wait to go on Spring Break to Flordia with his friends.
I texted him Saturday night about this and it was sorta of a mess because I was drinking and so was he. He said since he got to A-School, that I have been so rude and mean to him. That he cant take it anymore.. that he dreads talking to me! That I've changed so much and he cant stand it. That I hurt him... He said that he can stand phyiscal pain but emotional and mental pain he cant. and lately thats all I have been giving him... That he cant deal with stress and that is all I am lately. And i tried calling him and he said he didnt want to talk to me and that he was just going to go to bed.
I tried talking to him yesterday and he had practice and he went to the mall with friends then when he called I was having dinner with a few friends. So we still havent talked much.. I've been getting up really early and texting him Good Morning but i get no reply.
I'm super nervous that he's going to break up with me.. When I went to Great Lakes for the grad, everything was perfect! And now.. were falling apart.
He said that I'm a ***** now.. that I'm not the sweet girl he fell for. I want to try and change my attitude from being a ***** to the way I used to be.. I've changed alot since he left though.. I was more carefree and now I'm always worried about him and all...
Have you girls gone through this transition at all? And any tips please on how to be more positive? My friend offered me to go to chruch but I've never been into going to chruch... I tried looking for therpst and the they are so expensive. I was going to try keeping a journal or reading books.. any help would be great girls! Thanks because I really dont want him to look at me as being a downer..
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