Yup , i could feel the breakdown coming... - During Deployment

AnAopps · 01-31-2008, 11:43 AM

So yup, after a day of doing nothing but cleaning up

, I finally got DD down for the night and thats when it happened.

I sit down turn the TV on and BAM! I watch this couple have their first kiss, all romantic and crap, and I can literally almost feel DF's lips on mine! That sensation of being held by him, was lost in such a hurry my heart felt like it was breaking. Thats all that it took for me to fall in a mess of tears. I miss him being near me, holding me, kissing me anything that involves contact from him.

I swear when he finally gets home, no words need to be said just sitting next to him, feeling his warmth, smelling his smell is all I need.

I miss that him so much its hurting today. I don't have that much longer to go, but i my heart aches for him now. I need him now. I want him now.

I hate feeling this way, becuase nothing but time will make this go away. I have to ride through it, i know. But I am not happy!

I know this was more like a vent but i posted it in here becuase i knew you all would understand.

~~BJo~~ · 01-31-2008, 11:48 AM

We all have those rough patches. I couldn't watch homecomings on the news. Of course I am happy for these couples but it is so bitter sweet.

01-31-2008, 12:06 PM

You'll get through it if you just keep yourself happy, don't get down about it if you know what I mean..you have something special that you can hold onto, so hold onto it with all the strength you've got in you..he'll be home soon enough.

Alexandra · 01-31-2008, 04:42 PM

Hang in there Ashley! I know it doesn't feel that close but think about how far you have come already

HollySunshine · 01-31-2008, 04:44 PM

oh feel better!!!! Keep your chin up

TallBlondie82 · 01-31-2008, 06:12 PM

awww Im so sorry Ashley!...I've been having that kinda week too!...just remember hes going to be home soon and you have made it sooooo far!! you just have a little bit to go and you are going to have him right next to you...and don't watch those sappy things on tv...I swear those are out there to make us feel like poop...STAY AWAY FROM THEM!!! and go have yourself a bud lilte...haha you really do deserve it....I hope you feel better hun! if you want to talk pm me !

01-31-2008, 11:43 AM	#1 (permalink)
AnAopps I talk alot, it just never comes out of my mouth Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: MD Posts: 3,478 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 0% Longevity: 41%	Yup , i could feel the breakdown coming... So yup, after a day of doing nothing but cleaning up , I finally got DD down for the night and thats when it happened. I sit down turn the TV on and BAM! I watch this couple have their first kiss, all romantic and crap, and I can literally almost feel DF's lips on mine! That sensation of being held by him, was lost in such a hurry my heart felt like it was breaking. Thats all that it took for me to fall in a mess of tears. I miss him being near me, holding me, kissing me anything that involves contact from him. I swear when he finally gets home, no words need to be said just sitting next to him, feeling his warmth, smelling his smell is all I need. I miss that him so much its hurting today. I don't have that much longer to go, but i my heart aches for him now. I need him now. I want him now. I hate feeling this way, becuase nothing but time will make this go away. I have to ride through it, i know. But I am not happy! I know this was more like a vent but i posted it in here becuase i knew you all would understand. __________________

01-31-2008, 04:42 PM	#4 (permalink)
Alexandra Beltway Bandit Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Fort Meade, Maryland Posts: 2,987 Blog Entries: 4 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 0% Longevity: 55%	Hang in there Ashley! I know it doesn't feel that close but think about how far you have come already __________________

01-31-2008, 06:12 PM	#6 (permalink)
TallBlondie82 Im crazy, the good kind Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 21,674 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 0% Longevity: 40%	awww Im so sorry Ashley!...I've been having that kinda week too!...just remember hes going to be home soon and you have made it sooooo far!! you just have a little bit to go and you are going to have him right next to you...and don't watch those sappy things on tv...I swear those are out there to make us feel like poop...STAY AWAY FROM THEM!!! and go have yourself a bud lilte...haha you really do deserve it....I hope you feel better hun! if you want to talk pm me ! __________________

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01-31-2008, 11:48 AM	#2 (permalink)
~~BJo~~ Banned Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Your mom Posts: 25,358 Classifieds: (0) Activity: 0% Longevity: 42%	We all have those rough patches. I couldn't watch homecomings on the news. Of course I am happy for these couples but it is so bitter sweet.

01-31-2008, 12:06 PM	#3 (permalink)
MeAndMyMarine Guest Posts: n/a Activity: 0% Longevity: 0%	You'll get through it if you just keep yourself happy, don't get down about it if you know what I mean..you have something special that you can hold onto, so hold onto it with all the strength you've got in you..he'll be home soon enough.