Still in Shock....

[keobcc721]

It has officially been 3 days since my boyfriends orders to Japan came in. He is scheduled to report in a couple of months. I have been reading a lot of the other posts about enjoying the time we have now but even now we are in a LDR, im in school in Orlando he is stationed in Pensacola.

After a day of emotions and crying I have been in a somewhat daze, state of shock. Ive held it together fine all day and after saying goodnight I let my guard down and the emotions and crying were uncontrollable again. I guess he knew I wasent ok because he called back after we said our goodnights and I couldent hold it in. He stayed on the phone giving support, assurance, and love but it still dosent fill the void I am feeling right now.

I know I need to be strong for him, and he is so supportive to me right now but after hearing him say "it kills me to know I am the reason you feel like this" it really scared me. although I have told him many times, I dont want him to think I would be better off without the heartach!!

Please anyone, I need advice how to get through my own emotions while letting him know I can be strong for him and actually do it.

We have just about made the 3 mon point casually seeing each other for a few mon before that but 3 mon. exculsivle. I know it is early but we have been talking about engagement even before his orders came in. I want to marry him but I dont want us to be getting engaged for the reason of him leaving. Im sure anyone who has done LDR knows the only thing you do have is communication and that I believe is what has brought us so close so quick but i really need an outsiders perspective on all of this.

None of my thoughts process, everything is a mess. I would do anything for some clairty right now. Sorry if this post is all over the place

[savvy<3dizzy]

I would absolutely die if DB got orders to Japan. I do not blame you at all for feeling this way. You are not overracting, LDR are hard. It takes a certain kind of person. People may think you are too early in thinking about engagement however I feel that if it is what you two truely want then go for it. DB and I are talking about it because we can't stand to be apart any longer, I haven't seen him in a year. Granted we just became official we talked everyday of that year and have known each other about 4. I agree relationships in which you are forced to be apart can bring you closer but it can also shatter everything you have. If you want him and he wants you then make it work. Have faith and be each others support system. If you need anything or just want to talk feel free to PM me.

[LittleRed]

OP - you need to take the date out of your post. That violates OPSEC.

[mrsb88]

im sorry your sooo upset.. i dont have any advice for that. but i will say do what your heart feels is right. if it says engagement and marriage dont let time hold you back.. some people just know.. my dh and i got married at 2 months