Trying not to get my hopes up...

[aep073]

Ok.....
DB and i survived our first deployment...he was gone for 7 months and got back to the states in february however we are still LDR. The deployment was rough, i had a really hard time with it.. I always know there is the possibilty he will have to go again before he gets out in a year and a half. But lately he has been saying that he wont have to or his flight isnt going until 2011 so he's been pretty sure he wont have to deploy again based on what he has been told. I've been holding onto that hope but tonight he told me today he was supposed to fill a slot in a group that was leaving in december. He got someone to go for him instead i guess so he doesnt have to go. What if that didn't happen?! I can't stop thinking about it. I thought there was a very small chance of this happening but then again i do know it is the military and anything can happen. I'm just so scared it's going to happen again. He just has to say the word deployment and i start crying or a military commercial on tv will make me cry. Ughhh. I cant begin to think about doing it again i don't know what ill do.

This probably sounds dumb i'm sure. I'm just scared and feel like i'm walking on egg shells every day because i don't know what can happen. I know there are lots of you girls out there who have been through numerous deployments and such...howwwww do you do it!? How do you go through each day waiting to see? Oh gosh. Sorry if this sounds silly or like all kinds of complaining

[BJo]

I wouldn't jump to conclusions and I know many will disagree with me but I truly believe it gets easier the second time around.

[carmel11725]

theres no use in worrying when he doesnt even have orders yet, and even then...still no use in worrying b/c it doesnt help anything, i know...easier said than done, for some.

Ill agree with Bjo that it does get easier. The first one is a total learning experience. You have NO clue what to expect and thats always a little bit frightening. Its all mind over matter and positive attitude, for me.

[irishcanibal]

I hate the thought of my husband deploying again but he knows there is a good possibity its going to happen and he is trying to prepare me for it. Instead of saying if he deploys, my husbands says when I deploy and finishes the sentence. He keeps asking me you know I"m probably going to deploy again sometime next year and I answer yes. It goes on and on. I worry about everything including the things they may not even be possible so I know how it feels, people tell me all the time not to worry about things until it's a for sure thing but it never happens. Some of us are just doomed to be worry worts. Hope he doesn't deploy girl.