To much to think about at one time. I need some advice.

[his_love_<3]

I would like to say sorry for not being on here in so long. I have been quite busy with lots of different things here lately and I think I am finally slowing down.

Well i need some advice because this is really startin to stress me out.

Lets see, where to begin... I am now engaged with my Army guy and we have been together for quite a while and we will be moving in together within the next month. Here recently i thought i might have been pregnant. We had talked about it a bit and i think we both kinda got used to the idea and would have been okay with it, if it ended up being true. So now he and i are a bit bummed that i am not pregnant. On the other hand i am a freshman in college and i think i should get well on into school before we started a family. Josh, the fiance, wants it a bit more than i do because of a childhood dream. He has had dreams since he was a young boy that he would die young, and well josh is gettin deployed in dec and is pretty scared that he will never get to live his life to the fullest and have children of his own.

If one day i just ended up pregnant, I would be okay with it, but the fact that if its planned and i mess up scares me.

help.


im gonna post this on some different places to hear from people. thanks