Possible deployment (just a long ramble)

[bain5511]

My DB is an army reservist, and he just received orders that he is now attached to a unit that is deploying in April. He knew a month or so ago that he would possibly deploy with them, but now that he is officially transferred to that unit it makes it seem more real. I am telling myself he will be deployed so that it doesn't come as a shock, but it still hurts to think about it. He was deployed when we met so this isn't the first one I have to go through, but it is the first one since we have been living together. He is leaving for Atlanta for an internship in January which means even more time apart. I feel like when he leaves for Atlanta I won't see him again for over a year. It's almost like a panic inside of me. We are not married so trying to figure out finances, etc is not going to be easy. I also don't know if I want to stay here. I moved to a small town where I know nobody to live with him while he finishes school. If he deploys I am not sure if I want to stay here without a support system. The only problem is I have a good job here making more money than I have ever made. All this is so frustrating since I have no say in the matter. Does that make sense? Okay, I think I am done rambling. I try to talk to my friends about it, but none of them truly understand what it feels like.

[lauren33]

I'm sorry that you have all this going on right now! So when he goes to atlanta, you are thinking about moving there to be with him? i would say go for it. but you mentioned your job that pays really well where you are at now...DB always told me that he never wanted me to drop everything in my life for him...but its your call! you gotta do what you gotta do

good luck with everything!

[bain5511]

Originally Posted by lauren33 I'm sorry that you have all this going on right now! So when he goes to atlanta, you are thinking about moving there to be with him? i would say go for it. but you mentioned your job that pays really well where you are at now...DB always told me that he never wanted me to drop everything in my life for him...but its your call! you gotta do what you gotta do good luck with everything!

Thanks. I wouldn't move to Atlanta with him since his internship is only going to be 5 months, but he is convinced he will be deployed during his internship. I am thinking of moving back to my hometown to be with friends and family. I don't want to feel alone where I live now. I have no friends here and it gets lonely even with DB around. I can't imagine what it would be like to live here for a year without anybody to socialize with.