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  1. We're PCOS'ing out of here!

    by , 03-23-2009 at 10:42 PM
    So we leave here in about 2 weeks. OMG 2 WEEKS! He leaves before me (as they always do, right?) but I'm going back home for about 2 months so we don't have to kennel the dog and spend a small fortune.
    As every person that is PCS'ing says- I'm really going to miss this place, i'm scared and I don't reallyw ant to leave all of these great new friends I've made. Such is the life of active duty military......
    We're moving to Naples, Italy which I'm so excited about. it's fricking ...
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  2. Not getting any better

    by , 03-22-2009 at 01:34 AM
    Well it's 2:30am and I'm still awake. I'm pretty sure that says something about my mental health. I was up until 3am last night, sobbing and freaking out. Tonight I am fine, but I still can't fall asleep. I seem to be perfectly fine and semi-normal for a week or so, and then I just completely lose it.

    The falling apart days are getting worse. It's becoming harder for me to stay in control of my emotions and step outside of them enough to objectively look at things. I am starting ...
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  3. screw it

    by , 03-20-2009 at 11:52 AM
    Today is one of those days where it seems like it would be so easy to say screw it and walk away. We haven't talked for 6 weeks. I'm sending e-mails to an account that hasn't been checked since early February. I'm calling a phone that's turned off. I'm in a fucking relationship with myself. He doesn't even seem to exist anymore. It seems like it would be so easy to say fuck it all and not look back. I know I can do this, but today I've lost sight of the reason why I'm doing this. I'm the world's ...
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  4. Dear Daniel,

    by , 03-20-2009 at 01:09 AM
    You will never hear these words, but I need to get this off my chest and this is the best way I know how.

    You are the most selfish individual I have ever met. We dated for over a year & a half and for that long you made me feel completely alone. When you would come home, you would put everyone before me. I was stupid enough to let you do it. I made excuse after excuse and people would tell me "he hasn't been home in a long time, let him do what he wants to do" and when ...
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  5. Life is Good!

    by , 03-19-2009 at 12:40 AM
    I'm so happy my baby has emailed and called me again. I love him so much! I have found myself daydreaming of how it will be to have him here at home. With a big ole smile on my face. He confirmed that the 18 months will begin at the end of the month. I told him that I can deal with it and I will be waiting for him.

    Yesterday, I went to the doctor for a follow up appt found out that I have lost a total of 30 pounds. My goal to go is 40 more pounds. Ive been using the Atkins ...
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