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  1. Blahhhhh

    by , 10-12-2008 at 10:27 AM
    Well... I've come to realize that I use this blog when I really need to vent about something, but don't want to be a downer on the boards...
    I'm kind of hating MSOS today... I want my DB home so badly... and there are homecoming threads all over the place... AND I WANT MINE! I've been doing great lately. I'm always happy. I miss him, but I haven't cried about it (before now) in ages. I think I'm PMSing... I'm not sure though because I've been irregular ever since I started hanging out with ...
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  2. Better

    by , 08-12-2008 at 11:08 AM
    Well... I realized I only post in here when I'm in a bad mood... Or upset about something... So anyone who reads my blog probably thinks I'm a serious basket case.
    I'm doing better now. Bobby's been online more. I can handle things when I get to talk to him. I know things are different over there, and I shouldn't expect him to be himself, but I was worried he wasn't really feeling attracted to me... He wasn't asking for pictures.. Or webcam fun... And I started to feel like maybe he was ...
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  3. Scared

    by , 08-11-2008 at 12:38 AM
    I'm not strong enough for this...
    I'm falling apart...
    I just want him home...
    I'm not even CLOSE to finished with this deployment. I don't know how I'm going to survive the rest of this...
    He talks to me less and less every time I see him online... I'm scared... What if he forgets about me? What if he gets too used to being without me? What if he stops loving me?
    How am I supposed to spend another 9-10 months feeling like this? This is now the longest we've ...
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  4. I'm freaking out...

    by , 08-10-2008 at 01:55 AM
    I think I'm having a panic attack... My hands are shaking... I can't stop crying... I don't know how I'm supposed to do this... He's still not going to be home for another 10 months. Right now I honestly feel like I can't do it. I'm going to do it - for him - but it's killing me. I don't want to live without him. I need him so much right now. I'm at a really hard point in my life, and I need him here for me. He tries, he really does, but I need his arms around me. I need him to kiss my head and ...
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  5. I was doing SO well

    by , 07-24-2008 at 01:25 PM
    I was doing so well. I stopped crying every 30 seconds. I actually haven't cried in a LONG time. Yesterday was the first time I didn't hear from him and DIDN'T worry like crazy.
    I was doing SO well.
    And then today I got my first letter from him. I feel as crappy as I did the day he left. I cried as soon as I saw his hand writing. It was SO sweet. He sent a card and two letters all in the same envelope. I miss him so incredibly much, and I won't see him again until at least november ...
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