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by , 10-01-2008 at 08:43 PM (1138 Views)
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[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]10/01/08[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]Today I decided to start my blog.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]Its 6:35 PM[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]95 Degrees out side[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]And KC is in Yuma Arozona for training.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]I'll be 21 in 20 days, Have been TTC for 5 months, and currently unemployed.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B][/CENTER]

[CENTER][B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]Its been 11 days since KC left. Although I went and spent this past weekend with him I can't seem to over come this seperation. Its very strange for me. He has been at training before. Hell he has been to Iraq before but for some reason this one is different. I can talk to him when ever I want and he really only is 3 hours away, but there is this feeling inside of me that won't leave. sometimes I feel jealous. Jealous that he just gets to leave. He has no worries of bills or taking care of the house or that stupid fix it ticket he got and never took care of. He has no worries about money or sleeping in a home all by himself. Even though I know he would rather be home I can't help but think he is having fun all the time and has totally forgotten about me. Its absolutely rediculous though. My husband loves me with all that he has. Sometimes I forget that though and I fall into a funk. Which is where I am at now. I am depressed. 100% depressed and for no reason at all. Life is not bad. I quit my job because I hated it. I have a beautiful home. A husband who loves me. what gives? :dunno[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]I am so ready for this seperation to be over with. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]I am being such a baby and really need to get over :whatever it and move on. this is not me. I am strong and deal with the military life so well. I am an awesome Marine Wife! [/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]I just need strength. I need to dig down deep and get some in a big way! [/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[B][SIZE=3][COLOR=pink]I am sure I will write more later.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]
[SIZE=3][COLOR=pink][B]XoXo[/B] [/COLOR][/SIZE][/CENTER]

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  1. Amanda.'s Avatar
    i know how you feel! well ive never been through the deployement stuff, but this 3 weeks without brackston have been the hardest in our whole relationship, i wonder if its bc of the baby, and we are connected in a different way.. but yea i totally understand. and i (L) you!