amber,yo
missing my fiance
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, 01-16-2009 at 03:37 PM (985 Views)
brant has been gone for over 2 months now.. this is our second deployment together and its not any easier than the first.. in fact, its harder! i feel so empty inside. i live for phone calls and emails. im stressing out so bad about EVERYTHING! when he comes home we are getting married... and i have to plan it all. i got to the point this last week of giving up. i hadnt talked to him in a while and well.. i dont know many people on here so i felt alone almost. i sat down and started an email explaining to him how i wasnt sure if i could make it... just too much for me to handle and before i signed my name at the end he called me! it was amazing how he could feel me from so far away. when i said hello he said "baby, wheres your head at?" i broke down and he talked to me for 34 minutes. he assured me of everything. i feel horrible. he is the one away from home and he is the one comforting me. so backwards!
looking back i cant see how i could ever consider giving up on him, us... man i needed to hear his voice so badly.. and there it was.