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by , 12-01-2009 at 02:10 PM (1433 Views)
waking up next to him and to his amazing smile today...

I want to go back to NC already... It took everything I had to get on the planes yesterday and not to turn back and say f*** school, i want my man.
Im a mess. Noone here knows whats going on so they all look at me like im a freakin weirdo for crying... I MISS HIM! You wouldnt understand! You get to see your boyfriend every other day!
I couldnt sleep last night and so I found myself looking for jobs close to him... and schools I can transfer to... Cuz there's a chance I am going to loose my scholarship here so...
But then again, he is deploying in Jan... but it would be amazing til then and theres a job at this animal shelter near him that would be amazing and I think I need to be working...
Just going to school is depressing me. I want to be DOING something. Like when I was working at the Pet Hospital... that was amazing and I felt good about actually DOING something with my time and energy. Plus, being around a bunch of people and no animals gets to me too.
I dont know. It was a spur of the moment thought but the more I think about it, the more I like it. And if I dont loose my scholarship, maybe I could take a semester off and do some online classes while working out there and just get back on track... Cuz I can feel myself off track and I honestly dont see it getting set right without some sort of change.

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