dammit! i'm balling my eyes out and he hasnt' even left yet. He has almost a month and every time i'm by myself I end up crying. I don't want to do it in front of him because I know he'll feel bad and there isn't anything he can do. At the same time I feel so alone in this. Not like "i'm the only one this is happening to" but more because I really don't have any friends who understand and i'm lucky i have my family but there again....they've never been in these shoes.
To make matters worse I just listen to all these romantic songs we've listened to together and they all sound so sad now. It just makes the tears come faster. I try not to but maybe crying is the best thing right now? Or not.
AGH! If i'm like this now....what happens when he does leave?
